Tom

I don’t know if you’ve ever come back to this blog. I sure haven’t since I was about 18! Cannot believe that! This is just the only place I could remember that you came to that was mine and I don’t want to directly text you because for all I know you could be with someone else right now and moving on and I’m sure as hell not going to come between that.

I don’t really know why I’m here again and I don’t know why after a few years I’m talking to you again but I think it’s because I’m not over you and I don’t think I ever will be. I’ve tried to move on but those people haven’t been my Tom. I’ll  never find another Tom and I don’t want to find anyone else, I just want you.

I still think about you too much and wonder how you are. I am forever remembering when I’d hold you and tell you I love you. I still remember everything that we shared together and I just hurt so much that we couldn’t be together through our circumstances.

I know I still love you and I know for a fact that I always will. Whether that part of me will lessen over time, who knows; but what I do know is that you’ll always have some sort of hold over me and you’ll always have a massive part of my heart.

I truly know that you are the one I was meant to be with and I am more than happy to never have anyone again because I’d feel I was betraying that person for not giving them all of my heart.You still have my heart

I don’t know if you’ll ever read this and if you do then I’m sorry for still being in love with you. I swear that I;ve tried to move on. If you never see this then this has just been more forgotten words on a blank page that no one cares about.

I love you Tom and I always will. 

Love you forever, 

Your Shanskee  xxx